Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Your Universe revolves around "3"

As some old memories make their way through to my visions behind the autumn leaves, a dust covered memory glows with the radiance of its exuberance. Often we are awestruck at how this life teaches us the most complicated lessons with the most simple methods.
We experience so many things in our life that when we close the chapter, we find nothing so impressive or amazing.... than the mystery called as "Life". Life is over-rated! But whatever we see, feel, sense or acquire is, in this Life itself. Nothing goes beyond this life- No highs, no lows. Everything forms a part of it... yet we do not observe that we are just the pawns in this game, and life is silently making us move in the directions it wants us to. We talk of God, we talk of Nature but seldom do we think about that we are just sent on this earth to make the moves Life wants us to...in its own way. The mold is ready... we just have to make space for ourselves in it. And the way we make that space is called Experience....and that mold is called Life.
Random thoughts hit us a million times within a fraction of a second. I caught up one such random thought...as tiny as a sand particle...and began analyzing it.. and what I found was the structural pattern of one of the atoms of life.
Here it goes:
This incident is abridged from the life pages of one of my friends. The names of the characters in this incident have been changed. It starts when my friend Abhay fell for a girl Ankita who was also one of his friends. Ankita was a simple girl who didn't like many complications in her life but it so happened that her life always tested her. She probably never gave a deep thought to what Love is, and someday her prince charming will come and ride her away on his horse. But as I dared to speak about it, Rishab enters her life. He was  rich and from a well to do family. His academic records were also good. In short, he had all the luxuries of life and his career was all set. One fine day, when Cupid was in a mood for some mischief, Rishab proposed Ankita. Ankita, who probably never thought that this day will come, was amazed at this. She probably began thinking of way too many things. Their Surnames were similar; Rishab was a good guy; a good family background and a prosperous life. What more can a girl ask for? It was then that the molds seemed favourable to her. But a pawn doesn't know what is the grandmaster thinking about him. A week later, Rishab went away with the wind telling her that it was just a joke for him. A joke for someone- A dream of a lifetime for the other: What an irony.
On the other side of the story, Abhay was hurt. He decided that if Ankita's happiness is with Rishab, he may let go Ankita and never tell her what she meant to him. When he came to know about what had happened, he felt sorry for Ankita rather than being happy for himself. Ankita kept on waiting for Rishab till her tears dried up. Abhay decided to make her life as beautiful as it was before. He told her how he felt about her.... months passed by and they kept in touch...But Ankita never answered Abhay about his feelings. She just said I cannot love anymore. Its so strange that our first love doesn't succeed coz we lack certain things, but when we get to know about them, we don't love anymore!!
Still Abhay kept trying and trying...to keep her happy. He never raised any such topics in their conversations where Ankita would feel uncomfortable. Years passed by, but Ankita still didn't answer. It was during these days, a person named Kapil enetered into Ankita's life. Kapil fell for Ankita, and he had all those qualities which Ankita observed in Rishabh. That was the reason why Ankita ignored Kapil initially, but not for long.... And as time passed by, Gradually but slowly, Abhay became just an image in Ankita's life. And slowly but gradually the memory is lost; the last thing that can be visualized was Abhay was nowhere to be found, and Ankita started felling for Kapil. This is the end of the memory. It may be incomplete...It might not be what we are accustomed to have in romantic love stories...But its Life. Nobody knows where Abhay is what he would be thinking right now. No clue as to what happened to the Ankita-Kapil frame... But this memory just made me realize one thing...One small thing, yet a big experience of life.
Our universe revolves round "3" elements of life: Ankita, Rishab and Kapil. At some point or the other, we fall for Ankita, a Rishab enters her life and it gradually ends with Kapil. Its not necessary that Ankita should be a girl and Rishab a boy. These are just characters played by the elements of life. At certain points of life we are Abhay, and we really don't know how to erase Ankita's past and mold her a new life. We don't realize that we don't mold the life...The Life molds us; the only thing in our hands is how we manage to fit in that mold... On the whole, the mold remains the same.
It tells a very simple lesson to all of us: Accept whatever is coming and regret less. Whatever happens, happens for a reason that is beyond our imagination and control. If n ands, puts and buts, do not constitute a part of our universe. What matters is that we were in the molten form and we just solidify later. Experiences only make us stronger. We think too much about "Only if..." never trying to understand that whatever happened was already planned to happen. Why do we regret so much?
There are no Excuses in Life and no blame, Every morning is a fresh challenge... Either you learn to pick the gauntlet up and fight or learn to surrender to it... So long as there is life..there is struggle!!

Take care..
T.P.S.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Helplessness behind a Smile

Almost a week has passed since this happened and I was confused whether to put it here. Its impulse rather than anything else that my fingers are running on the keyboard right now.
Everyone wants to smile and laugh... to have a good time wherever they are. In the process they often do things which probably they don't realize or probably wouldn't have done otherwise. It's so easy to laugh at others, but it takes a lot to laugh at your own helplessness.
One fine afternoon I was with one of my best buddies, Vishwas Pratap Singh at his place. I wouldn't have mentioned his name but being the protagonist of the post, I decided to give him this honour. Bored and with nothing to do, we decided to relive the pranks we used to do with our mates. Whatever followed, can be figured out from the saying "An idle mind is a Devils workshop". I hit one of the pranks which he tried to play upon me once.... and there we were, living the Deja Vu. We planned it once again...this time with a better story.
I called his friends one by one on the phone and pretended to be his elder brother asking them whether they have any news on Vishwas as he didn't return home even after 2 days of his leaving the house for some purpose. Over to that, I also told that he isn't answering any calls.
It was a mere co-incidence that all the friends who were contacted happened to be girls. They were out of their wits when they heard it. They all began texting and calling him, and he received all of them. He told them that he won't be returning home as he is going to marry a girl his family won't accept, so he slipped out of the house and went out of the station to be with her. It sounded real funny when they tried to convince him and ask about his well being. But we had no idea how far this was gonna go.
There was a girl who was one of his better friends. Vishwas cared about her a lot. But the fun of the prank proved too much to think about that fact how seriously she took things. We didn't take a note that she can go into depression and all that stuff. But luckily nothing of that sort happened. On hearing this news, she was deeply hurt as she also cared for him like a brother. Still the Devil was heavy on our minds to take a notice of it. The prank started to get serious and uglier. Gradually, we came into a thought mode. We couldn't have ended it. The prank almost got into everybody's nerves and especially her.
Initially we had decided to stretch it for about a week and then call them all at a place together, for a treat and have a end the prank telling them all about what exactly happened. We had a plan to make the moment memorable when we let the cat out of the bag. We started arranging for digicams, cake and a party. But it was not to be. Things became a mess and it was becoming uglier with each passing moment. We had no clue how we would end it. The girl was in real gloom. The only thing we could have done was to look at each other's faces and smile a helpless smile. We didn't know what we could have done at that moment. A moment of laughter was worth days of tension. Yes we did laugh...yes we did have our moment initially, but it didn't go as planned. And even today, this prank is proving to be nuisance... more to Vishwas than to myself. He thinks twice before leaving the house and almost all day long he wishes only if he could go back in time and stop this from happening. He smiles, but he knows it deep within himself that he is helpless. He never wanted it to be this way. He wishes only if he can take back the stress that he gave to all of them, only if he can explain why he did it, only if he can tell them the truth without affecting their friendship. He is still worried and still thinking about it....and all he can do is to smile...at his own fate.
It may be sounding pretty easy from a non-inertial frame, but it isn't. For the moment, the cat is still in the bag and nobody has any idea how, when and where to let it out...

God Help!!!

Monday, March 8, 2010

"Feeling" the "Free Will"

Just finished watching "City of Angels". What amazes me about the movie is the beauty of its simplicity. We never think about the gifts provided to us rather we choose to sulk over the things we do not possess. One such amazing feeling which waved my mind was the gift of "Feel" that we humans possess. We can touch, we can see, we can observe, we can laugh, we can cry, we can "Feel". We don't notice that it's such a blessing to be born with a tongue and in the most stable form ever known in the universe. The beauty of this "Feel" is very under-rated; and it's true had it not been for the movie, I would have never written it.
Its so beautiful feeling the pinch of the cold air, feeling the water gushing all around us in the ocean, feeling of the taste, feeling the rain pouring down on us, feeling the heat of the sun, feeling the blood running in our veins, feeling the smaller things in life we never tend to notice, feeling those things which are hard to notice, feeling a hand which touches our face, feeling that warmth which is never spoken but just felt, feeling the love which makes our heart pump faster, feeling that someone is always there for you no matter what, feeling that someone really cares when you think you cannot be understood, feeling that someone is always around...watching you!!
God didn't give us all the things we would have liked to have, but he didn't deprive us of the "Free Will". That is one thing which will always be with each and every one of us. This is the greatest gift He could have given us. Whether we believe in Him or not, we love Him or not...but still he gives us that "Free will".. and that free will allows us to believe, love, or hate him.. And all He does is to accept it all....whatever you give with a smile. This is a precious gifts my friends. This can help us attain whatever we want in our lives. What else can we ask for? We are capable of fulfilling our desires. All we need....is already with us!!
These two gifts are the best we can hope for... the rest are all ILLUSIVE..
I am FEELING real good :)

Thursday, March 4, 2010

The Half State.

It's ironic how things get going your way when you don't need them. Desperation leads to the conditions of extremes- you set an example in either case. When you get things done, you are praised for your desperation, dedication and commitment. When you mess it all up, you set an example of what not to do! But you would have done the same anyways...whatever fate might have had in store for you!
Last night I went into a deep thought when I heard the lines from a song by "3 doors down" - "My friend, this life we live, isn't about what we have....It's about what we believe in." I couldn't agree more. We all ultimately do things we believe in... hoping for the best outcomes possible, and fearing the worst. The outcomes are certainly not in our hands. But then its again ironic...on what factors do the outcomes depend? Taking out the Luck factor, everything depends on us- the mortal human beings, our surroundings, our conditions and the people we rely on. I am not a firm believer in Luck. To me, Luck also depends on the factors which surround us; and everything that surrounds us can be changed to the best of our conditions (theoretically). That is probably the only reason firm believers do it 9 times out of 10. Then they stand before us on a podium where we listen them say, "Just Do it". We have 2 things that can make anything possible (almost) for us - The Brain and The Heart. Most of us find it difficult to make our brains and hearts work in co-ordination. Usually the human brain and the human heart clash. It clashes because it is meant to be that way. It is designed for that purpose. But the firm believers are the ones who have tuned their hearts and minds to one particular frequency. All we need to do it get that frequency going for us. A man has that power within him to make them work together. He just needs to realize it. When the hearts and the brains work in a team.....that's when we say "Impossible is nothing".
Sadly, till now "The Time Machine" has not been invented. It would have made things a lot easier. The focus on the co-ordination of the mind and the body would have been less. As life depends on two factors- the yesterday and the tomorrow, "Today" is always found missing. Yesterday- things that have happened cannot be changed; Tomorrow- will be decided by what we do today. But we often tend to repent on the yesterdays, making our precious today go unnoticed. That in turn, decides out tomorrow, which is none better than the yesterday. Something tells me we need to stop living on the bunch of old yesterdays and move forward with today. That is the most difficult part to explain as YOU are still lying on those yesterdays, and fear being lonely if you let it go. But when you shrug the curtain in front of you, you realize actually the thing making you lonely is the same same thing you are not letting go.....while your today which is much more worthy and beautiful still awaits you. Sooner you later you will realize it :) Take you time. All I wanted to do was to spread an awareness for whats exactly happening.
Your time has started. Try and match the frequencies of your brain and heart. This life is still beautiful, and it gets better and better....only if you try!! Good Luck :)