Friday, December 24, 2010

2:200

Sometimes your life makes you understand too many things in a short period of time. This is one such moment. Sometimes you do realize that one mistake makes you learn a lot more than 100 other mistakes. Sometimes 2 days of struggle and hope makes you learn 200 things.. This is one such day.
Imagine about a situation where you should have won but you lost. Imagine about a situation where last 4 deliveries of an over could have made a difference had you been there till the end. One mistake and it can be all over.. Finished!!
It hurts when you know that you had the potential to do something great.. to make it big on your own but you weren't able to perform at a crucial stage. That feeling of being hurt and broken makes you ruminate and realize so many things you could have done to make it better. It reminds of one of the famous quotes,"There are no second takes in life.. Either you learn to pick the gauntlet up and fight or learn to surrender."
One missed catch, One brilliant effort in the field, One big shot, Avoiding one bad shot to get out. Being there till the end, Not giving that extra run... The list of such small things can for on and on without an end... but these things make you realize that your potential is of no use if you aren't able to show it at the right time. That's why life has no second takes... That's why... it's life!
Yes.. We lost a Cricket match today.. A match I had dreamed of playing and winning over the past one year. A match which could have gone our way but it didn't. A match to die for... shattered by such small things.
But it made me learn... your potential will just be of no use if it doesn't click at the time it is needed the most. When you know your opponent might not have ended on a winning note had one small thing gone your way. I wish I was there till the end.. I wish... I hadn't learned these 200 things in 2 days of hope and despair..
But the glass id always half full. These 200 things in 2 days won't be a waste in times to come.. Coz you know it within yourself.. You won't commit the same mistake again. I'll be back... And I'll be back with a vengeance... and harder the next time.. Be prepared... coz Life won't give a second take..
B-bye!!

Monday, November 8, 2010

The Freedom Speech- "Braveheart"




Wallace: Sons of Scotland, I am William Wallace.
Young soldier: William Wallace is 7 feet tall.
Wallace: Yes, I've heard. Kills men by the hundreds, and if he were here he'd consume the English with fireballs from his eyes and bolts of lightning from his arse. I AM William Wallace. And I see a whole army of my countrymen here in defiance of tyranny. You have come to fight as free men, and free men you are. What would you do without freedom? Will you fight?
Veteran soldier: Fight? Against that? No, we will run; and we will live. 
Wallace: Aye, fight and you may die. Run and you'll live -- at least a while. And dying in your beds many years from now, would you be willing to trade all the days from this day to that for one chance, just one chance to come back here and tell our enemies that they may take our lives, but they'll never take our freedom!!!
Wallace and Soldiers: Alba gu bra! (Scotland forever!)

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Incepted!! Was the whole movie a dream?? :: Reality is a 'relative' concept..

Inceptionized!!
That's the only thing I can say after watching the movie yesterday night... Whohaa!! One hell of a movie. Yeah! You'e right... I am late on it. But it was all worth it.
Questions, Questions, Questions, and many more Questions!! Well I am one of those few ones who think they have understood the whole concept of the movie by just watch it once.. But, still I think there will be more things that will pop up in my head each time I watch it.
Let's come to the interesting part!! The questions that will be arising in your mind after seeing the movie would be as follows:

1. Who was in who's dreams?
2. The concept of Limbo.
3. The ending of the movie.

Well, believe me or not.. these are the easiest questions that can be answered by watching the movie carefully.
About the first question, I would say that a dream, within a dream, within a dream, within a dream i.e. 4 levels of dreams are enough to get you thinking on it. When the main plot starts, they start their work in the plain itself. "Yusuf", the chemist dreams the first dream. When they were attacked by the militants of the subconscious that have been developed over the period of time, they were in a van that was been driven by Yusuf. That was the time when they enter into the next level of the dream, that was dreamed by "Arthur". In the first level of the dream, Saito was shot, but wasn't dead (just in pain) which gradually made him weaker in the dreams that followed. Saito wasn't shot dead in the dream 1 to wake him up to reality as it wouldn't have woken him up from the strong sedatives that were given to him, instead, it would have thrown him into a limbo for an indefinite period of time. We'll discuss the limbo in the coming questions. One interesting point to note here, was that 5 minutes in a real world was equal to an hour in the dream. The mind begins to function so fast in dreams that it spends a lot more time in dream than in reality in a specified period. That also goes for the next levels of dreams that were followed. So the ratio remains the same! So, the level 2 of the dream was being dreamed by Arthur, in a hotel, who was already injured in dream 1. The next level of Dream was dreamed by "Eames" the forger in a smow fortress. That should have been the end, but it wasn't supposed to be. As Robert Fischer Jr. was shot by Mal just before he could have opened the safe, he wasn't woken up, he just went into a limbo. The levels of dreams and the sedatives were too much to wake him up. So the 4th level of dream was achieved to bring back Fischer from the state of limbo by giving him a "kick". The 4th level was a shared state. It was being dreamed by Cobb, Ariadne, and Fischer together. Saito also joined the limbo state once he died in the dream 1. Another interesting point was each person who was dreaming a dream did not enter the next level to give a "Kick" to the dreamers in their respective levels. Yusuf, who dreamed the first dream did not go to the level 2 to give the required kick at a specified time. He kept driving the van in level 1 and kept fighting the subconscious militants. Arthur didn't go to level 3 and remained in the hotel in the level 2. Similarly, Eames didn't go to the limbo alongwith Cobb and Ariadne. That Explains the boundaries of the dreams. One more fact was that Cobb never hosted the dreams as Mal wouldn't allow his dreams to be a success as she was always there in his mind.
Simple!! Isn't it? :))

Now the next question: What exactly is a Limbo? Limbo is actually unconstructed dream space – a place of raw (and random) subconscious impulse. Ariadne drops a line early on about the fact that the extractor team can bring elements of their own subconscious into the dream levels if they’re not careful, and since Cobb has spent time in Limbo and has a raging subconscious, the Limbo space they enter includes his memory of the city he and Mal built for themselves.. By the time you reach the Limbo state it can be so difficult to wake, and the dream can feel so vividly real, that the mind stops trying to wake at all – the mind accepts the dream as its reality, like slipping into a coma.

When you wake up in Limbo you don’t remember that there is such a thing as a “real world” – as in any dream, you wake up in the middle of a scene and simply accept it for what it is. Breaking yourself out of this cycle is extremely difficult, which is why Cobb and his wife Mal were trapped in Limbo for what seemed like decades.

Time is the other factor. The deeper you go into a dream state, the faster your mind is able to imagine and perceive things within that dream state. We’re told the increase is exponential, so going deeper into dreams turns minutes into hours, into days, into years. This is why Cobb and his team are able to pull off the Fischer job while the van is still falling through the air, before the soldiers break into the snow fortress, before Arthur rigs the elevator, and all within the span of a flight from Sydney Australia to LA.

In Limbo, the mind works so fast that actual minutes can be interpreted as years gone by. When Saito “dies” from the gunshot wound he received on level 1 of the dream, his mind falls into Limbo, and Saito remains there for the minutes it takes Cobb and Ariadne to follow him into Limbo – those minutes in one dream state feel like decades to Saito in his Limbo state. By the time Cobb deals with expelling Mal’s “shadow” from his subconscious, Saito has begun to perceive himself as an old man.

Mal’s shadow stabs Cobb during the film’s climax, which throws Cobb back out into Limbo and onto the shores of Saito’s limbo house. When Cobb has to “wake” again in Limbo, his mind is muddled just like old man Saito’s brain. Through Saito’s memory of Cobb’s totem and some shared dialogue that included key trigger phrases – “Leap of faith,” “Old man full of regret, waiting to die alone,” etc. – Cobb and Saito are able to remember the meaningful conversations they had and that there is a reality they existed in before Limbo, where both of them had deep desires still waiting to be fulfilled (Cobb and his kids, Saito and his business). Once they remember that limbo is limbo, they are able to wake themselves up (likely with a gunshot to the head).

Now comes the most exciting part of the story- The Ending! Lets us talk about it. The ending of Inception is meant to leave you thinking and questioning the nature of reality. The important question is not “Is Cobb still dreaming?” – What is important is the fact that the character of Cobb goes from being a guy who is obsessed with “knowing what’s real” to ultimately being a person who stops questioning and accepts what makes him truly happy as what’s real.

In the movie, Cobb and Saito (seem to) wake up from limbo, Nolan very purposefully shifts the film into an ambiguous state that leaves it somewhat open to the viewer’s perception and interpretation of that perception – two big themes of the movie, coincidentally enough.

Throughout the film, Cobb continues to obsess about spinning the top and verifying reality – however, at the end of movie, he spins the top and walks away from it before he can verify if it stops spinning or not. His kids come running in and Cobb could care less about about the top or “true reality” or extraction/inception anymore. He just wants to be with his children, in whatever place he can be with them. That emotional connection and desire is “reality” enough for him.

That is what the movie shows you. Now comes the part what you make out of it. Here is what I made out of it:
The whole concept of the story was to create an abstract image for the audience. Have you ever given a thought what if Mal was right? What if Mal knew that Cobb didn't realize he was in a dream? The Ending of the story might justify it, The Totem was never seen falling, so if that was a Limbo where Cobb is still trapped, Mal could well have been right. The whole movie could just have been a dream! If that is the case that means the whole movie is a dream where cobb tries to go deep inside his dreams to come to reality[which is impossible phenomenon]..finally the reality like scene which shows their successful inception is just a misinterpretation[a creative imagination in limbo] of cobb himself dat he has come out of his dream..so hes sure that hes in reality and hence not wishes to see the tottem,,Finally abt the tottem spinning or not.. ill post it in my next comment..KEY:the movie is completely cobb’s unshared imaginative dream[going downwards] after mal’s death[gone backward level]

So we can add 2 more things here. If Cobb didn't wake up and still is in a state of Limbo, there is another obvious sequel coming our way. Or, If Mal was right, then the whole movie was just a dream. They are just interpretations as we can never be sure. Just Like the "Shutter Island", we are free to conclude whatever we want.

In the end, Cobb walking away from the top is a statement in itself that also completes the arc of his character. In a way, the movie is its own maze designed to plant a simple little idea in the viewer’s mind: “reality” is a relative concept.

Hats-off to you Nolan, you have made us talking, thinking and blogging about it.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Better than Me







I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
And guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered what it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took that you were lookin' for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall, you and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered what it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend

I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this

Friday, October 8, 2010

Unfinished!

Unfinished!
'Gowdy' to his credit never gave up on his dream.. But that's not usually how it goes.
And usually it isn't a speeding bus that keeps the brown pointy weird church from getting built.. Most of the time it's just too difficult, or Expensive, or Scary....
It's only once you've stopped that you realize how hard it is to start again... So you force yourself not to want it. But it's always there... and until you finish it, it will always....... Be there..

UFO Over China Sets Another Mystery

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UFOs have always been a fascination for millions of people all over the world and now, it appears to be a ‘boom time’ for UFOs in China. In the eight such incident since June this year, yet another UFO was spotted over the Baotou airport in China’s Inner Mongolia province, forcing the authorities to shut down operations for more than one hour.


According to Shanxi News Net, it was near midnight on Sept. 22 as Gu and his friend were taking photos of the beautiful moonlight view of the ancient Pingyao City in north China’s Shanxi Province, when Gu noticed a bright spot in his photo. He first thought it was a star, but could not find a star in that position when he carefully looked back up into the sky. Enlarging the photo, Gu found the bright spot was a flat object with two flashlight-like beams behind it.


UFO sightings have increased in China, according to media reports. In a recent sighting, photography student Gu Peiwen closely examined a photo in his camera and shouted in disbelief: “I just caught aliens on camera!”

According to 
Shanxi News Net, it was near midnight on Sept. 22 as Gu and his friend were taking photos of the beautiful moonlight view of the ancient Pingyao City in north China’s Shanxi Province, when Gu noticed a bright spot in his photo. He first thought it was a star, but could not find a star in that position when he carefully looked back up into the sky. Enlarging the photo, Gu found the bright spot was a flat object with two flashlight-like beams behind it.

Excited, both students continued to take more photos, hoping to track the object, invisible to the naked eye. The photos showed that it had lingered for about 40 minutes.

The Pingyao UFO sighting was just the most recent of an array of sightings in China since June.

According to the 
Legal Evening News, flights were delayed due to a UFO that was spotted near the Beijing Capital International Airport at around 8 p.m. on Sept. 21.

Four hundred miles northwest of Beijing, several flights arriving at Inner Mongolia’s Baotou Airport were also delayed on the evening of Sept.11 after air control radar detected a UFO, according to an 
Inner Mongolia Morning News report.




In August, at least four Chinese cities reported UFO sightings, while between June 30 and July 15 at least nine sightings have been reported across the country, according to Chinese media.


Though UFO spotting is rarely reported in Chinese media due to rigid censorship strictures, the Chinese are by no means strangers to sightings. Shen Kuo (1031–1093), one of the great Chinese ancient scientists from the Song Dynasty (960-1279), recorded seeing a UFO in his Dream Pool Essays (Mengxi Bitan). Wu Youru, a Qing Dynasty (1644-1912) painter vividly depicted a crowd watching a “fire ball” flying eastward in Nanjing City.


While recent UFO sightings have received a lot of publicity, Chinese astronomy researcher Wang Sichao said in fact the number of major sightings this year is just a little higher than average.


Wang, a researcher from the Zijinshan Astronomical Observatory under the aegis of the Chinese Academy of Sciences, made the remarks in an interview with New Tang Dynasty Television.


Having studied UFO sightings for 39 years, Wang said major UFO sightings have occurred the most in years ending with 1, 2 or 7 since the 70’s. He predicted that more significant sightings may occur in 2011 and 2012.


Former UK Ministry of Defense UFO project leader Nick Pope said the existence of aliens is unquestionable. Mr. Pope investigated the UFO phenomenon for 20 years at the Ministry of Defense, handling 200 to 300 UFO sighting reports each year.


“I’m convinced that there’s life out there in the universe, and I’m also convinced that some of that life is intelligent,” Pope said in an interview with The Epoch Times.


“If extraterrestrials were visiting the earth and interacting with humans, then I suppose that what they’re doing would be something similar to what we do,” Pope said. “After all when we study wildlife in the environment, we hide ourselves, we try not to interact with it. Sometimes we tranquilize animals, experiment on them. Sometimes we put a tag on them. So … maybe they’re just studying us.”


-Source: www.in.yahoo.com

Thursday, October 7, 2010

The Music is all around us... All you have to do... Is Listen!




-"August Rush" (2007)

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Threshold of Tolerance

Isn't it good to learn something new every day?
I wake up every morning with a blank mind so that I may be able to scribble anything over it to learn something each day... and trust me, may day starts with a smile each day. (Touch-wood!)
I learned something new today. The psychology of a person plays such a vital role in conditioning their surroundings! It's so amazing that people who might have so much in common may see the same story in a different perspective altogether.
The more you look at it that way, the more you tend to believe, that there is nothing "WRONG" or "RIGHT" in this world... it's just a matter of how you perceive things. Each person is right in his/her own way whereas it can never be the same for others. The most important inference we get from it is that no person is ever bad or evil. Every one has some values which one follows. Its a matter of time which value gets the better of other in the same frame. What may seem like unethical to someone might be necessity for some other on that moment. No person can ever be wrong! There is a conscience within each of us and its very hard for a person to go against it.
So if you ever think that somebody is an idiot, fool, stupid or a simpleton for that matter... think again! There are bound to be some circumstances for each step someone takes. If that step doesn't appeal to you that simply means that you are not in the same condition as the other is or you are just groomed and conditioned in a different manner with different necessities.
EMOTIONS..... These are the strongest and the weakest virtues a human can ever possess. Interesting! Emotions compel a human to take any big or small step whatsoever, and you know that pretty well... don't you? ANGER is one such emotion. Personally, I love it!! Anger can make me do the most weirdest of things and things which I would have only gazed upon in awe...
Some interesting theories on the "Threshold of tolerance" inspired me so much, I couldn't resist to share. Every person has a limited threshold of tolerance... which depends on person to person. The way our necessities shape up to be are a result of our grooming, conditioning, perception and many other things which a second person won't ever be able to understand fully. So it's not possible to ask somebody to step in somebody else's shoes and see things from their perspective.
Every person is different from other and every person is good enough to be good in their ways. The threshold of tolerance plays a vital role in assuming, presuming, or making a perception about different individuals. A joke might be tolerated from "A" to you whereas you might not tolerate the same joke from an equally known "B". A wife may not speak up for domestic violence for 25 years of marriage but she might get up some day all guns blazing for an issue that shouldn't have provoked her any other day. There are "n" number of reasons for a thing and "n" number of solutions for the same. So anger is something which does not erupt all of a sudden... it is the process of formation of certain layers of resentment over a period of time inside the volcano... And a Volcano cannot remain Dormant forever. Someday or the other it has to erupt. And the frequency of its eruption depends on how high or how low is the Threshold of Tolerance... which again depends on "n" number of factors such as grooming, shaping, necessities, background etc. Complicated!!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Fear of Loneliness

It was a fine evening today. A slight breeze was coming from the east with some clouds loomimg over the place where I was smoking with my friends. There was a sudden silence when a cool breeze caught everyone's attention, and I puffed the smoke fumes up into the breeze. I felt something very unusual at that very moment. No sooner did the breeze engulfed the smoke, than there was a hault in the air. The breeze came to an abrupt end making the sound of the crickets audible. An awkward silence persisted for about a minute when the wind regained its momentum. That was the very minute...
It was a minute in which my mind traveled beyond the eternity and back to the puff of the cigarette. A thought with a speed undefined changed the course of my mood for the whole day to come. A sudden thought it was...It was a thought that made my night sleepless and it is still playing on my mind. It was the fear of being the lonely one.
This life is highly over-rated. But no one knows what happens once we go beyond this life. Death on the other hand is very much under-rated. Just hold your breath and think about this for a moment. What if you die but you don't cease to exist? If your death doesn't cease your existence but just transfers your identity beyond this world where you may be able to perceive all living beings around you but you can't feel them or make them feel about your existence.
Try and imagine you being in the same world but different life-zones where you are the only one with the mortals all around you who aren't even aware of your existence on that very moment or that very place? Imagine yourself being in front of someone you love and really care and you can't tell them how much you miss them and how much you really want to be with them? You're trapped... for eternity! No one to talk to.. No one to share your feelings with.. Seeing your love in front of you and you can't even kiss them one last time.... You know they are in pain, but there is nothing you can do about it. Knowing that they're missing you at this time and shedding those precious drops for your sake wondering you were around, what could you have done? Only had you known it before... Only if... you knew it would happen this way.
I wonder how many souls would have been sitting there amidst that silent evening crying and watching us but there wasn't a bloody damn thing they could have done about it?
There are bound to be some things which might be inevitable... but you got some time today in your hands...
and that's called Life!!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Hope in Despair

It's been quite some time since the last time I came here and gave my fingers some practice. It feels great to be back again and share my experiences with you all.
Change of places hasn't changed me a bit and all I know I am the same person that I was before coming here.
I have learned the most important lessons of my life in this short span of time here. I am glad that I can be flexible when needed. I found people around me uncomfortable with the way of living here, but I was amazed to see that I didn't feel the negative vibes of coming to a totally new place. The apprehensions which I feared don't exist. The comforts that aren't available here keeps our hope alive for a better tomorrow.
This is the best thing that anyone can ask for.... Hope... at its very best..
I'll be back again.. very soon!!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Quotes.

Try not to become a man of success but a man of value.
Albert Einstein

If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be.
Now put foundations under them.
Henry David Thoreau

Inspiration and genius--one and the same.
Victor Hugo

To find what you seek in the road of life,
the best proverb of all is that which says:
"Leave no stone unturned."
Edward Bulwer Lytton

If you would create something,
you must be something.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Every artist was first an amateur.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

The more difficulties one has to encounter, within and without, the more significant and the higher in inspiration his life will be.
Horace Bushnell

Life has no smooth road for any of us; and in the bracing atmosphere of a high aim the very roughness stimulates the climber to steadier steps, till the legend, over steep ways to the stars, fulfills itself.
W. C. Doane


Do we not all agree to call rapid thought and noble impulse by the name of inspiration?
George Eliot

No great man ever complains of want of opportunities.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Men do less than they ought,
unless they do all they can.
Thomas Carlyle

Men's best successes come after their disappointments.
Henry Ward Beecher.


Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
Leon J. Suenes

The power of imagination makes us infinite.
John Muir

First say to yourself what you would be;
and then do what you have to do.
Epictetus


It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, "Always do what you are afraid to do."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Take calculated risks.
That is quite different from being rash.
George S. Patton

If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes.
St. Clement of Alexandra

We are all inventors, each sailing out on a voyage of discovery, guided each by a private chart, of which there is no duplicate. The world is all gates, all opportunities.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Seek the lofty by reading, hearing and seeing great work at some moment every day.
Thornton Wilder

The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible.
Arthur C. Clarke

Without inspiration the best powers of the mind remain dormant. There is a fuel in us which needs to be ignited with sparks.
Johann Gottfried Von Herder

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore,
is not an act but a habit.
Aristotle

Work spares us from three evils: boredom, vice, and need.
Voltaire

If the wind will not serve,
take to the oars.
Destitutus ventis, remos adhibe
Latin Proverb

Experience is the child of thought, and thought is the child of action.
Benjamin Disraeli

You cannot plough a field by
turning it over in your mind.
Author Unknown

The best way out is always through.
Robert Frost

Do not wait to strike till the iron is hot; but make it hot by striking.
William B. Sprague

Nothing will ever be attempted if all possible objections must first be overcome.
Samuel Johnson

Fortune favors the brave.
Publius Terence

When the best things are not possible, the best may be made of those that are. - Richard Hooker

He who hesitates is lost.
Proverb

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
Albert Einstein

Knowing is not enough; we must apply.
Willing is not enough; we must do.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

We are still masters of our fate.
We are still captains of our souls.
Winston Churchill

Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

For hope is but the dream
of those that wake.
Matthew Prior

Constant dripping hollows out a stone.
Lucretius

Nothing contributes so much to tranquilize the mind as a steady purpose--
a point on which the soul may fix its intellectual eye.
Mary Shelley

Sunday, July 11, 2010

I tried so hard and got so far... But In the End, it doesn't even matter.



It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Or wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how

I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised

It got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter


This is one of my favourite songs and I was tryin' to search what it exactly means. It's strange how every individual has a different approach to the lyrics of this song. People interpret it according to their lives and experiences. Same lines, same song... yet different ways of seeing it. Oh! Come on.. it's just a song. The lyrics of this song are so tempting inspite of the fact that they may be representing a darker side of life (another interpretation).
Some said that the lyrics of this songs were taken from a suicide note... But the video of the song looked so positive. The other interpretation was that the song is based on a relationship which ceased to exist. The lines tell us about how hard one tries to put things in order when everything is falling apart. Time plays such an important role in it as you can't extend it or go beyond it... you gotta do things with whatever time we are left with. But no matter whatever we do, how hard we try... everything falls apart in the end. Another negative interpretation.
Most o them interpreted that this is all about life and death... a man may run from death but can't hide from it. Eventually death is the only reality one is left with and there is nothing a person can do about it. Believe it or not.. Death is the only reality... for everything else will be lost in the end.. no matter how hard you try.. but it won't ever matter. Even though it portrays another negative influence the song has on the people, this explanation of the song seems a bit more positive in a manner that more often than not seems to be true:
If One day everyone has to die, and there is nothing you can really do about it... there is no reason in the whole eternity why not to follow your heart. One always knows the destiny... the ultimate destiny that he'll be facing. So instead of surrendering things to your fate, do it your way... for there won't ever be another chance that you'll get to do things what your heart always told you to do. Follow your heart, coz even if you don't... in the end it doesn't even matter.
Time is indeed the most valuable thing in this world. Although it seems to be passing away each moment, it is the same every moment.. what passes every moment away is your life, which instead of living it, you end up dying, with nothing to cherish about at that moment. The point is to start living the moment... which is the only thing that matters. "I tried so hard and got so far.. but in the end, it doesn't even matter."- Life isn't about the destination but its about the journey. The destination is always the same for everyone and you can be certain that you will reach it- death. So start living the moment, the journey you are in... coz that is the only thing you are left with... which is yours, and which you have your control and faith in. Your whole world which comprises of faith, belief, trust and hope is all for the journey and not the destination. Listen to your heart right away. There won't be second chances in life and there will be nothing to regret later. The moment is what that always matters. The destination is something which is inevitable. Stop going for the destination. No matter who you are or what you want or what you think, everything thats taking place is in the journey itself. That is the only thing which you're left with. Why let it go for a destination that will never change? Again, listen to what your heart says. Mind is a crap.
In this life everything is messed up... always.. Either you break down or learn to fight... in both the ways, you'll end up with the same fate... the choice is yours... how do you want to end up!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Someday when they ask again... what you what to be.. We won't have to guess... We'll Know.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how 'bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy 'cause there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won't have to guess. We'll know."

-Jessica Valedictorian
Speech from "The Twilight saga: Eclipse"

Friday, June 25, 2010

Let me be Myself


I guess i just got lost being someone else,
I tried to kill the pain
But nothing ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hoping to come back around
and find myself some day

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's OK, tell me please
Would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself

Would you Let Me Be Myself
Coz I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else
I'll never see the light of day
Living in this cell
It's time to make my way
Into the world i knew
And take back all of these times
That I gave in to you

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's OK, tell me please
Would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself,
For a while
If you don't mind,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself

That's all i ever wanted from this world
Was to let me be me..

Please, would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself
Please, would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself,
For a while
If you don't mind,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself